No More Funding

Just heard that the grant that funded my son's behavior therapy may have run out. I'm bummed, but I really can't complain. It was good while it lasted. And I'm grateful for the help that we did receive through the therapy. And I can't expect them to supply therapy support forever.

It's just a shame that it has to end now. I can't afford to continue it on my own right now. Not after the summer we've had. First was the unexpected medical bills. Even with insurance, the out of pocket expense was huge, with specialists, MRI, and physical therapy. Second was the unexpected demise of our car. That really hurt. We had been hoping it would hang in there until my car was paid off in the spring so we could avoid two car payments. No such luck. We had to buy a "new" (used) car, and couldn't even use the old for a down payment - it went to the junk yard. Ouch. So throwing on another doctor bill is out of the question. We're just spread too thin.

I guess I'll have to keep my fingers crossed that Nathan will have matured enough to really improve his behavior. He did do well in camp. He's had a great summer. I've got every reason to be optimistic that he can turn things around this year. Even his teacher seems really nice and kind, and might be just the type of person we were hoping for in a teacher. (Fingers crossed...)

School is just such a big unknown for us. We never know how he will respond there. He had a great summer last year, too, (without meds, too!) but the meltdowns started almost immediately upon his return. Oh well. Maybe this year will be different. He was dreading going back. Me too, to be honest. But once he met his teacher, he really started to get excited about school again. I'm cautiously optimistic. But that's more than I expected to feel. I'd probably be downright optimistic about it, if we didn't have such an awful back history to beat that feeling all to hell.

Nathan's made a lot of progress in the past eight months. He's really grown, and shown a lot more maturity. Perhaps he'll do okay without behavior therapy. I hope so. And DH and I have been working a lot of overtime lately. Maybe that will help us get back on our feet after the summer's financial blows. Maybe we can resume therapy later, if it comes to that.

The news is just very disappointing.